Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Andd it's high time to listen wonderful songs. Today I chose this nice song 'Elbette', 'Of course' by Turkish artist and music teacher Candan Erçetin. It's a song for people who are experiencing hard times:) It says:
If the deepest wounds get healed and the biggest sorrows are forgotten
Why should I fear?
Why should I stay same?
Of course, sometimes I blossom and other-times I wither
Of course, sometimes I talk and other-times I stay silent
Of course, if I cry today, I'll smile tomorrow.
It has soothing effect when you are in depressive mood. Everything changes that's for sure and the undesirable situation of today could be the signal for better times!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Here I am. Why I choose the title "Something Borrowed Something Blue". It is not in favorable meaning. I try to explain the irritating and exhausting situation I am in. There is nothing that pleases me these days. Don't think that I'm an unbearable and cocky person, I'm just disappointed. I'm far away the things that I like. I'm glad when my sisters, my parents are happy. Isn't that something borrowed? Unfortunately it is temporary too. As a result my mood is blue. I feel hurt most of the time. The reason is a recent event. You remember when I talked about applying for a job and trying to be on the list. I have studied for certain exams for a year and my score is 93, not a bad one I think. Anyway I applied and when the list announced I saw that I was the third person and they were supposed to hire five people. I got really excited and I was almost sure to get the job. In the exam there were only three questions and we were supposed to choose the two of them and answer. Last question wasn't even a question, just asking our opinion. At that time I got uncomfortable coz I understood rating would not be objective. Nevertheless I tried to be positive, and couldn't help dreaming and making plans for the future if I get the job, after I took it and gave right answers for each of them. Result? Failure! 2nd,6th,9th,13th and the last person got the job. And I learned this on the first day of my holiday. All my holiday got ruined.I still can't believe that I don't have a job for a year despite all that study. It's suffocating. People who pull strings or those who let such things happen are so able that they don't even let you object to the result. I honestly appreciate their efforts and wish a miserable life for them.
(I took the photo above in hometown.)
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Yes, its time to talk about vacation! The week before I went to a few cities including my hometown, K. It's a lovely city by the Black Sea. But there is a curse for me there, I think. Because each time I feel so excited and each time something bad happens to me. This time wasn't an exception. But I won't mention that. First day we were in Z., the city where my uncles live and the first photo was taken from the window of my uncle. Z. is the city where the chain of events began. The first night we planned to stay at my uncle's home. We were in the last days of Ramadan and were supposed to wake up before dawn to have Suhoor. When we got up their phone rang and we learned that father of my uncle's wife had had cerebral bleeding and was in the hospital. They immediately left house. We help them to pack their suitcases and saw them off. It was an awkward situation to be left in a home and seeing the hosts off in the middle of the night! Fortunately old man got well few days later.The second sea photo, on the right, is from my hometown, K. Two days later we arrived there after having been to three cities already. Z,K,S and finally K are all coast line cities. My grandfather has an old house there and we stay there when we want to get some fresh air. Wild flowers, huge trees, animals all fascinate me. For this reason when I saw the blackberries by the roadside I couldn't help jumping out of the car and eat a few of them. This excitement came to an end, unfortunately, when my little sister warned me saying "Aren't you fasting?". I spitted out the berries :( And I wrote "üşengç" -one 'e' missing- "lazy" on my fav yellow notebook with them and surely my Chevy was with me.
The last photo you see is the view from our living room and the reason of our being attached to our hometown.
Hello hello hellooo after a long break! I haven't been able to write for a long time but I have reason which I will explain later. Anyway I want to mention about one of my fav songs: Twenty years by Placebo. It was a song that I gave myself as birthday present when I turned twenty years old. It is one of the inspiring pieces I enjoy listening all the time. And the punch lines are these:
And that´s the end and that´s the start of it,
That´s the whole and that´s the part of it,
That´s the high and that´s the heart of it,
That´s the long and that´s the short of it,
That´s the best and that´s the test in it,
That´s the doubt,the doubt,the trust in it,
That´s the sight and that´s the sound of it,
That´s the gift and that´s the trick in it...
I don't know whether there are twenty years to go in front of me, or this is the golden age but I know there are twenty ways to know in a world full of corruption and tricks. Life is full of contrasts and surprises. When you think you have reached the end there you start something new or vice versa... Nevertheless I hope a life full of gifts, joy and success for all of us.